Home' Trinidad and Tobago Guardian : June 11th 2014 Contents A33
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Muhammad Ali is renewing
his ties with the African coun-
try where he won his epic
"Rumble in the Jungle" fight
four decades ago.
The museum and cultural
centre that bears Ali s name
announced plans Tuesday for a
September 20 benefit concert
singer Bruno Mars in Louisville
---the boxing great s hometown.
The concert will air via satel-
lite in Congo as part of a week-
long music, sporting, economic
and cultural festival in the
African country called
A concert in the country s
capital of Kinshasa will take
place in the same stadium where
Ali defeated George Foreman,
completing Ali s quest to reclaim
the heavyweight boxing title
stripped from him years earlier
for refusing to be drafted for
military service during the Viet-
"Forty years later, even though
I now have a quieter rumble, I
still have great passion for what
the fight and its build-up meant
to the world," the 72-year-old
Ali said in a news release Tues-
"It is never too late to be
what you might have
Joan Chisholm always
wanted to be a writer.
Married for 28 years
and the mother of two sons,
Chisholm was unsure what
stopped her from pursuing
her dream, especially as she writes: "Lit was all I
thought about doing every day of my adult life."
It was only when faced with the end of her marriage,
and forced to focus attention on her life and her dreams,
that Chisholm realised she had been deeply unhappy
for a long time and was able to connect the unhappiness
to "not pursuing [her] long-held dream of being a
Now 68, Chisholm has published her first book,
Spirit Love---A memoir of How I Found the Meaning
of my Life.
Written like a collection of journal entries, Spirit
Love describes the journey Chisholm makes through
the maze of low self-esteem, fear of failure and fear
of success, and the limiting beliefs about her identity
as a woman, wife and mother which were incongruous
with life as a writer.
"I had to overcome a range of fears, things I wasn t
conscious of," says Chisholm. "Initially I had no energy
to do it. I had to face everything from being a peo-
ple-pleaser to my fear of failure."
Achieving her most deeply held dream, Chisholm,
who was born in Marabella in 1946, has returned to
T&T for an extended stay, her first since she migrated
40 years ago to Canada.
"It has been a journey of finding myself," says
Chisholm, who explains that she "always felt estranged"
from Trinidad and like she "didn t belong."
But having developed the courage to be the one thing
she had not allowed herself to be---a writer---she has
also been able to turn her attention again to her mother
country, and, like the love she found for herself, find
a deep emotional connection to the place.
"Having a career at age 68 feels fantastic," enthuses
Chisholm. "Writing could go on forever. I get up in
the morning and I am totally happy."
This is a million miles away from where Chisholm
found herself some years before, when, as she writes
in Spirit Love, "Routines of the day seemed boring,
and each morning loomed as a challenge to my hap-
piness." Believing herself then
to be only living half of her life,
Chisholm writes, "I placed all
of my creative energy into the
job of being a wife and moth-
er."Although Chisholm didn t
completely give up on her
desire to write, by taking cours-
es and completing writing
assignments, she was
stymied by the belief that
she had to choose between being a homemaker
and a writer. Chisholm was mired in depression
and confusion. Her sons, Graham and
Michael, would ask her why she wasn t writ-
ing. Her husband did not know how to help
her when she seemed so unhappy, and says
Chisholm, it helped to push their relationship
to breaking point.
The motivation came, however, when
her husband declared their marriage over.
His business was on the verge of collapse
and, forced to sell the family home they
had bought in 1978, Peter Chisholm
decided that he wanted a separation.
"I noticed that he wasn t looking for
places [to move to]," says Chisholm
and she asked him why.
She was unprepared for his reply:
"I am not moving with you."
Chisholm grows emotional.
"It was serious," she says,
speaking of the loss of her hus-
band s business. "It decimated us
financially. We ended up with no
money at all. When it happened, I
heard my husband tell the children
that it was all over."
But she did not realise at that point
that he was speaking about their mar-
riage as well.
"It was a total shock...It was a crisis
of separation and a crisis of writing,"
says Chisholm, explaining that the two
things almost felt like one.
Feeling more lost than ever, Chisholm decided
to seek help. The help was unorthodox. Her
first plea was to something bigger than herself.
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Out of the maze comes...
Bruno Mars benefit concert to commemorate Ali's "Rumble in the Jungle" 40 years ago
courage to be
the one thing
she had not
to be---a writer.
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